sometimes its really sad to know that someone whom have been so close with you for years, yet in the end, that person still couldnt understand what kind of a person am i.
there are times when i am feeling down or moody or whatever,
but i dont find the need to explain to you as to why am i behaving like that.
there's no obligations involved anymore.
anyway, would you even care even if i told you?
maybe you will say you care about me,
but i felt otherwise.
that kind of special mutual trust has long gone,
and it will never ever come back again.
what really pisses me off is that,
you are forever saying you will not contact me ever again, after i gave you that kind of 1 or 2 words reply?
what kind of logic is that?
isnt that acting childish?
obviously i was feeling unhappy or moody or other reasons, thats why i replied in such a manner!
in the end, what i got from you is "FUCK OFF! and STOP BEING A BUM!"
of course,
i was pretty upset about those words,
but i decided to ignore it,
because there wont be any ending to it.
it will happen anytime again.
anyway,
i was feeling so down these few weeks.
(and that person make me even more upset last night.. oh wells.)
decided to visit the GP since i dont see any improvements to it.
did a blood test,
and the report is out.
i need to take another test again.
sighs.
really feel so tired.
i just hope that things will go back as per normal soon.
ps: sorry to friends if i cancelled any appointments at the very last minute... really sorry. :/
i was flipping through the photo albums and all my childhood memories came back.
i really miss being a small little girl;
no stress, no worries.
the 3 musketeers.
really miss those good old times with cousin and brother.
HAHAHA!
is that really me? omg! :x:x:x
oh wells.
if only everything was as simple as before.
but thats highly impossible since we are living in such a fast paced country.
life is full of stress, worries, anxiety and maybe excitement and happiness at certain period of time.
personally, i am not someone who would cope well with stress.
i get emotional so easily that i do freak out at times at the thought of it. :x
i really need to learn to relax,
and i think its a good time now to do so...
rained @ 12:27 PM
Monday, June 01, 2009
i am so angry with myself for not answering his calls.
perhaps i'm just not lucky enough to catch him;
the phone always happens to be inside my bag whenever he calls!
nevermind.
i will sms him instead.
;)
rained @ 9:22 PM
